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...listening to the theme from "Sleepless Town"... it's soothing, yet very powerful...
everything *is* alright -- me correcting Stefan's "everything will be alright"
...remember yesterday?... the taming of hearts?... I didn't expect my heart to be touched as well on the *same*(!) day in that particular way... that Alex's office-moving-thing really hit me... nothing spectacular one might think (I thought so too), but it evolved during the day to a real killer... the meaning of it? I am definitely sure I received a similar feeling I delivered when I quited my apprenticeship... I understood... and this understanding overwhelmed me...
Strange enough that experience left me later that day an emotional bundle... Nelly was a kind soul and tried to cheer me up...[*that day morning I wondered how her hair looks untied (I recall her always having a knot of some kind in her shoulder-long hair)... funny enough her hair *was* untied... I realized that it wasn't the first time I saw her with untied hair but it was in fact the first time I did it in a truly conscious manner*]... as she tried to cheer me up I was thinking "I do not need any cheering up"... I was wrong... there was again some kind of heart-touching-bussiness going on...
...a minor/major note: after a discussion today "Holy Bear" implied I am wasting my (supossedly spiritual?) energies... I don't know if she actually meant by that my exhaustive, exaggerated arm-movements I used during our talk to emphasize my insights... :o)
everything will get *better* -- Stefan correcting my "everything *is* alright"
chainreaction...
...so many things happen... so fast... so many possibilities... and so much power is involved... and exhaustion... and intense emotions...
Takagi-san's handshake (no, it was a "handholding") with his both hands was overwhelming... and disarming...that very same "shaken/holded" hand tamed and overwhelmed yesterday a few more hearts... I did not intend to do anything particular... it just happened...
The Firenze-weekend had it's effect. I wanted to abuse it to get back "magic" (an abusive kind of). Thank god it didn't go like that. There was magic nevertheless. I have to think of that young waitress in the chinese restaurant having a bad day. The dishes seemed to hate her; spoons fell on the table and the like. She was thankful, when these nasty beasts where at least gathered and handed her over and was going like "grazie...grazie...mille grazie..." ...later on when we waited outside the restaurant for the Senseis to finish their bussiness, my ears perceived the sound of dishes falling to the ground and breaking. My feet carried my body without hesitation to the inside again and my hands picked up the bigger parts of some broken cups... the waitress returned with the broom-tools and found myself placing the bigger cup-sherds into her bin... a tired but nevertheless happy smile along with another set of thanking words were drawn forth from her... Sensei asked the waitress "trouble?..." but she just politely apologized again while starting to clean up the mess... my feet decided by then to carry the rest of me to the original possition out of the restaurant... during that whole scene there was no gap for a thought or intension whatsoever...
"Das reue Scheh" -- direct translation: "the dashful beer" :o)
O.k., let's start of with the coincidences: What do we have?... mainly "deer" (tons of deer-coincidences) and on a minor scale the "cherry-blossom-color". There is this endless "deer-hunter" ranting with Tolis... then the new deer-wallpaper on my PC-desktop... then we have this bashful deer trying to copy a tutorial about a particular older german charachter-set having a deer-example (the word "deer" with an image above it). The latest is a true coincidence; the others are arguable. Then we have this very same bashful deer with that cherry-blossom-colored jacket... we have the cherry-blossom falling on a water-surface revealing, that it was just a projection of the moon ("Last Blade" I played lately)...
...Hmm, reminds me of yet another coincidence: I couldn't show to Pascha the Samurai's traditional tying up of the sleeves preparing for a fight (Watanabe-san, whom I asked to show it couldn't remember as well). I noticed yesterday a FUBAR-version of this knot in "Last Blade" (the "X"-part of the knot was on the front!!! Horrible!)...
...yesterday...raised the kite without raising it...